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What I'm Bringing with Me

It has been a week since I wrote on my WIP. I knew this was going to happen--it's the time of year for craziness and fun distractions, after all. Yesterday, my Illinois sister came through on the way to help ship her son and his stuff home from his first year at college. She and I looked at maps of Chicago and hotel websites and got some planning done for my trip out this weekend. We shopped and went out for sushi. We ate ice cream.

She's heading out soon to meet her son at the dorm and see whether he's actually put any of his stuff into a suitcase or box. :) When she's gone, I'm going to sit down in my office and open up the WIP. After a week. Yipes.

Surely, I learned something in this week that I can bring back with me to the book. Surely, something was sitting in my brain bubbling away. Maybe.

What I actually think/hope I am bringing with me is a more relaxed state of mind. I wouldn't have said so going into this past week. I was in a very tight, twisted knot about how the first draft wasn't going smoothly OR fast, and how I was going to make NO progress on it, etc. etc.

Well, who can write like that? Not me. And I realized that if this is how I start my summer, then I will be perhaps productive through it, but I will very likely be a nut case by the end of it. (More so than usual.) And I will not be happy about the hours I have spent with Caro.

Blech.

So, yes. I will still try and get through the draft by the end of June. I will put in hours every day I can, and I'm actually thinking about rearranging my writing time, so that I'm writing evenings into night and not pushing myself out of bed so early in the a.m. I'm going to clear deck time in the middle of the day for what I call "available time" with my son. I.e., he may want to have nothing to do with me, but if/when he does, I won't be so wrapped up in getting back to the computer. And I'm going to stock up on Tamora Pierce novels, which I just discovered, and make sure I get some relaxing, pleasure reading in every day. Without multi-tasking through it. I'll be trying very hard to spend less scattered time online, but will try to chunk it out and maybe catch up every couple of days, not stay caught up each day. This is hard for me, not just because of habit, but because I do get energy from connecting with other writers and what they're doing. I'm just going to have to take in that energy less often and build on the energy from focused writing instead.

Do-able!

I want to love this story, not hate it. And the amount of words I can get onto the page in frustration and stress are going to be words I don't want to work with later, so that pretty much nullifies the quantity.

Whew. So, yes, that's what I'm thinking this week off brought me. That and family and friends and Ben & Jerry's Phish Food. Sounds like a good deal.

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(Anonymous)
Jun. 9th, 2009 04:24 pm (UTC)
So do-able. Never underestimate the value of down time. Or Phish Food.

Carry on!
Terri
beckylevine
Jun. 9th, 2009 04:30 pm (UTC)
I have a little Phish Food left. Try for using it as reward; motivation if necessary!
kellyrfineman
Jun. 9th, 2009 04:54 pm (UTC)
Your post title made me think of the game "I'm going on a picnic". I'm hoping you love your story, too.
beckylevine
Jun. 9th, 2009 05:00 pm (UTC)
Oh, I love that game. Maybe I just need to create an imaginary basket with tools and strenghs. :)
d_dina_friedman
Jun. 9th, 2009 05:21 pm (UTC)
I find that taking days off is sometimes the best thing I can do, even if it might take a day or two to get back to it. Hope it's fruitful for you.
beckylevine
Jun. 9th, 2009 05:37 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Dina!
jeannineatkins
Jun. 9th, 2009 05:49 pm (UTC)
Do-able, yes!

Hope that vacation brings back the love.
beckylevine
Jun. 9th, 2009 05:52 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Jeannine. Seems to be working. :)
britlitfantwin
Jun. 9th, 2009 07:41 pm (UTC)
Oh! Which Tamora Pierce books are you reading first? Are you reading them in order?
beckylevine
Jun. 9th, 2009 07:46 pm (UTC)
I'm not reading them in order. I found one of her newest at the library and am sort of working backward and sideways from there! It's a bunch of the circle books, though. She's making me very happy. :)
britlitfantwin
Jun. 9th, 2009 07:51 pm (UTC)
It's well worth it sometime to read them in order, if you like, because it's so much fun seeing Briar, Sandry, Tris, and Daja grow up! You don't need to, though. I'm so glad you've discovered her! She's made me very happy for years, and still does. :)

Edited at 2009-06-09 07:52 pm (UTC)
amygreenfield
Jun. 11th, 2009 12:54 am (UTC)
Good for you for putting the love first. You will find a way.

Sending lots of good wishes!
beckylevine
Jun. 11th, 2009 02:29 am (UTC)
Thanks! It's coming, if slowly and like overly sweet syrup!
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beckylevine
Jun. 11th, 2009 01:40 pm (UTC)
I think it did, too. The writing is going MUCH better.

SAVE Phish Food? I don't think so! :)
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